High School

So I am not even going to look at how long it has been since the last post.

This month has been a little bit of everything.

Sad- my PopPop passed away. I am an emotional bottler but don't want to be. So I have done denial and busyness so far in my list of ways to avoid dealing with it. But the fact is, I pray that I will see him again. The funeral and travel was tough but good.

Happy- We have had tons of laughs this month. Mostly around the dinner table, in the van and just in our general togetherness. I love and cherish this gift of family. Lord you are so good to me.

Frustration- Jeff lost a battery in his car this month. We missed the money and church that week.

Hope- i feel like I have grown spiritually this week. My adventure of trust and obedience is just the beginning I beleive but I know he is fatithful and will work in every situation. I keep praying that my path is crossed by situations that I can be what Jesus wants me to be.

Messy- My house has been a straight up hot mess this month then clean to be turned into a hot mess once again. Not sure what I do wrong...maybe it is my lazy sleepyness or that wonderful plug in blanket.

Scary- Abby had a meeting at the high school this week. Jeff went with her...I am in denial. She actual seems pretty excited by the whole high school thing. She saw people from her old school that she knew and knows a lot from her current school. Maybe it is the place for us afterall. God please give us your wisdom.

over- today is the last day of January 2012. Lord, you surely did supply for our needs and wants even. You blessed us with time together and with others we love. Thank you for your goodness and grace. Thank you for the peace you have supplied for our home. Holy Spirit move in our family. amen.

Plug it in, plug it in

So I have to say one of the best presents that my man has ever given me is a plug in blanket for the couch. It is yummy on cold evenings. I love it so much that I have to get all my chores done first cause once it is on I don't want to get up:)

So last night was a cold evening. Abby had tons of algebra homework, Nick had reading to do and Jeff's in so much pain from his diverticultis that he was already laying in bed -that poor man is so miserable :(- So we got out the electric blanky and Abby used some of it at the end of the couch with a tv tray for homework. Nick and I used the other end to snuggle under while he did his ready. It was a little piece of heaven on earth. If only my man had felt well, it would have been perfect.

So I have been praying and praying for Jeff to get better. I just feel helpless that he hurts so bad. I will not drop my mustard seed of faith that he will be healed. I have and continue to rebuke any and all physical, spiritual and emotional attacks on him from the enemy in Jesus's strong name. I will continue to stand in that faith for him.

Now that all of those nasty's are gone, This morning it was like 18 degrees out and I told Nick to zip his coat, which he did but it was so tight it would barely get there. So looks like Mom is getting a coat today. It fit him perfectly last month during a cold spell but we have been warmer since and he has been wearing a lighter jacket. Looks like he grew quickly again. so new coat and shoes will surely follow for my boy.

Abby's feet have settled in at the 8-8.5 mark so I think they are going to stay put there. So shoes for her are more about style than necessity at this point. I love that!

So tonight is church, Jeff is supposed to help with game night with the kids, praying he is able to help. He loves working with them so much.

The ultimate happily ever after

So last night I had a headache and was just plum lazy. Lazy = laid on the couch with a blanket and played words with friends with my man.

So nothing to report from the homefront - just a lazy momma.

This morning quiet time was amazing. I felt led to journal in an old notebook. I hope that God uses that tool again to help me to remember. I have been meditating on His talk with me quite a bit this morning at work.

Isaiah 61:10
New Living Translation (NLT)

10 I am overwhelmed with joy in the Lord my God!
For he has dressed me with the clothing of salvation
and draped me in a robe of righteousness.
I am like a bridegroom in his wedding suit
or a bride with her jewels

I have a student assistant who is getting married in a few months and just yesterday we were talking about her wedding planning. She is excited and young and in love. She is on Pinterest pinning ideas for her perfect day. The day she walks down the aisle all dressed up for her man, who will sweep her off her feet.

I have been listening excitedly as she prepares. She is so young and so in love. I keep gently steering her away from the pitfalls of wedding planning to the focus of her actual marriage. But the draw of her wedding day is just so enticing. The clothes, the symbolizim, the anticipation, the simple expression of love.

Then this morning in my super sweet quiet time, the Lord gave me this passage. Oh, I still have the best wedding to be ready for. My dress is the gift of salvation, my robe is His righteousness. It brought to my heart that I need to be enticed and daydreaming and looking for ways to make that day - THE DAY. I may not be able to pin it on Pinterest but I can get my heart all ready and my attitude of hopeful, dreamy anticipation refreshed.

Thank you, Lord for being in the details of my conversations and for the Holy Spirt guiding me to what You want me to see. I love you, Jesus. I am so ready for our wedding day. The day that I am your bride for eternity and we all truly will live happily ever after.

The New Year

I love the new year.

Mostly, because I am an excellent starter. A mediocre at best finisher.

So new years are like new notebooks that I want to fill with words and start to but then only have 10 days of words, but then when i get the hankering to record my thoughts and feelings again i.must.get.a.new.notebook cause so much has changed.

I was oh, so tempted to start a new blog for this year. Since the last one I did so poorly at but I refuse. You can't expect a different outcome from the same process.

I have been reading blogs of people who did the year end recap. I tried to get my tired, overly forgetful mind to do a recap of my last year but I have a tendency to dump the bad and the good. To be too much of living in the moment because I am too lazy and probably emotional shut off to process what I am going through - good or bad.

So I am not making a new blog or buying a new notebook. I am not resolving to be a better writer or take more pictures(although I really want too!). I just want to end each day knowing what I am thankful for that day. With the One who gave it all to me.

Stay posted, or not. I pray that I will be a good finisher.